This is the only video I could find with English subtitles, but wow. Wow. Wow. I have literally listened to this song so much in the past 24 it can't be healthy. For those of you (Alex) who won't watch the video because you don't like the way Korean sounds, the lyrics are below:

You got prettier too, though you always looked beautiful in my eyes

But you seem a little different today; you seem unusually cold

The gaze you put on me is full of pity

In front of you, I look small

I have a lot I want to ask, but you cut me off. 

Your hair flows in the wind, and it hits me on my cheeks and leave.  

You turn around and leave just like that, 

would I look silly if I try to hold you back? 

Trembling, you take two steps back.

Your words that you are afraid of me 

You are the one that makes me crazy 

You know the old me 

When the time passes, I will have to disappear 

You’ll know then

You know me

It ends, 

but if you leave me like this, I will die. 

You say, let us be together when we’re happy and when we’re sad. 

You don’t (won’t) say that tomorrow.. 

I say, let’s love today as if it’s the last day.

The world doesn’t go correctly without you 

Your existence has become an incurable illness for me  

but what really hurts is the fact that you have become a part of that ‘everyone.

You know the old me 

When the time passes, I will have to disappear 

You’ll know then

You know me

It ends, 

but if you leave me like this, I will die. 

Don’t do this, Don’t do this, Don’t do this, You don’t seem to be yourself 

Still far apart, With love still divided

Don’t do this, Don’t do this, Don’t do this, 

Please remember the me that stood next to you

Please don’t ever forget me  

You know the old me 

When the time passes, I will have to disappear 

You’ll know then baby

You know me

It ends, 

but if you leave me like this, I will die. 

I’m not a monster. 

I think I’m sick, I think I’m sick.  

Forgetting the beautiful video, amazing makeup jobs, and all that (and the awful hair cuts vxv) the song itself... Just has such beautiful music to it, and lyrics written by the members. The line Seungri says in English gets me every time, and almost makes me want to curl up in a ball and just be sad for days. "You won't say that tomorrow." There's just... Something so beautifully depressing about the way this song is written. Like, they know they're being left behind, but they're happy for that person, which is just so... Ah. It's so hard for me to express my feelings toward this song, and this group in general. They're really a group of really insiprational guys, with lots of talent.

The music in the background is very soft and gentle and then when Taeyang sings he has this gruff almost angry desperate sound to his voice, which is really cool, and really great. G-Dragon's rap is so bittersweet sounding and absolutely perfect. Seungri has a sad sounding voice in general, and Daesung hits the vocal with power. It really feels like they're about to lose someone special to them.

Then there are so many little things in the song, like Taeyang sort of scoffing when he says "You say I scare you by now, but you're like the moon that drives me insane." Is subtle but I noticed it and I was like wow, that's great. And then you hear Seungri's voice break in the back of the chorus, and at the end, that's where the real magic of the song hits me. Throughout the entire song, if you listen, there's a heart beat at the beginning of each line, but as the boys sort of start backing off in volume, the heartbeat gets louder, and G-Dragon ends the song with the "I think I'm sick" 's, which those in themselves, hit me pretty hard, because GD's voice is in there twice. The lower steady tone, and the higher falsetto that sounds like he's about to break down.
To a lot of VIPs this song was a flop, but I positively love it. 

Anyway, the reason I said so much about the song was because it actually inspired a story! It's nameless as of right now, but it does have an entire plot, and I'm slowly ironing out details. Maybe I'll post some of it here for you! But it has to deal with the ideas of "monstrosities" in the world. Monsters and humans exist in opposing worlds that exist within each other, separated by mirrors, but Monsters are the civil group, while humans have lost compassion and such.


And so, the story follows a Monster boy as he befriends a human boy for a short time, before he's deemed a Monster still, and their friendship is destroyed by the idea of division of classes. I'm very very very excited to write it, and hopefully I can finish it before the end of the summer~ We'll see...

I drew the three main characters who will be in the story before I even had the idea for the story, honestly. I knew I wanted to write something, and I wanted them to be in it, and things just sort of fell into place. Like the way I keep my papers and my books, my mind's pretty disorganized, but it all works out in the end, haha~




From left to right it's Fuuta, Sera, and Cel, human, human, Monster. They were really quick ideas, but the developed into something pretty big! Fuuta doesn't look the same anymore, since I've changed him a bit, and Cel had changed a bit too. Originally, these three appeared in a dream I had, and the stood out to me a lot. Weird, huh?

I've felt extremely creative these past few days, and so I've been away from the blog, painting, drawing, writing and just thinking a lot. vxv

I had one more thing to share... But this post is getting SO long I think I'll stop for the night. Tomorrow I'll tell a few more stories of how I've been spending my time and say a thing or two about Serbian grammar~ I guess, looking back at what I wrote, my brain really works in a strange way, huh? Well, I've always thought a little differently than the people around me. I'd be curious to see an analysis of my thought patterns someday!